Hey everyone,

Hope you had a great week. It went well last week. I got rid of the extra pounds I gained from the week before. Yesterday I found some even older information about my highest weight, a surprising 171 pounds (77,6kg). Wow, that means I have lost a total of 25,6lbs (11,6kg) already! And my boyfriend too has lost more than 30lbs (13kg). It’s been a long journey, and it’s so easy to forget when I only lost about 4-5 pounds per year (2kg) at the beginning. But at the end of last year, the weight kept coming off steadily. But I still got 35lbs/16kg left to lose. I’m almost half way into my journey now. If everything keeps going this well I will be able to wear a cute summer dress!

Weekly weigh-in

Last week I was stressed out like a kitten so I was a bit out of control with the eating. It wasn’t major catastrophic, but it took me a few days to find the inner balance again. I gained about 2.4 pounds (1kg). Everything is back to normal again this week. Yesterday I tried “Just dance” on my Wii, a fun mini dance workout to get me warm up without puffing too much.

A new blog design is already up, cuter and a little bit pinker! ♥

This week I lost 2.6 pounds (1,2kg) and I didn’t have any trouble with the binging, what a relief! Exercise is not on my list because I think it’s not necessary yet, it would become too much of a distraction for me and I don’t want to go down the same route as before.

First and foremost my plan is to be able to handle the binge eating issue, the second is to lose major weight so my body is better prepared to handle the workload from the exercise. I may want to take a walk or do some easy exercise just because I feel like it, not because I must.

As for now it’s not much more to do than wait and be patient with this process. No huffing and puffing with exercises or tracking and planning the food.

(pounds)

It’s another good week, at this rate I’ll be skinny by the summer! It’s my t.o.m week and it usually messed up my progress, but this time I’m hitting a new low on the scale. I heard that during this period the body is actually burning extra, and that’s why you want to eat a lot. Since I don’t overeat, the food itself has become more delicious and tastier than ever. Plus, I cut down my grocery bills dramatically. This year is going to be one of the best years, and other problem will be solved as well. I’ve never done this well

(in lbs)

Everything is going so great! My eating habit is improving and the weight is dropping. I don’t struggle with the eating and the exercises like crazy. I do biggest loser on my Wii a couple times a week, and some shopping on the weekends. I’m more relaxed now and I even made cupcakes!

My first cupcake

Clearly I’ve become unfocused and forgot about the basics. Right now I’m working on my eating behavior, to eat only when I’m truly hungry that’s when the stomach feels empty. I got inspired by Japanese eating style; bite size and smaller bowl. I even wanted a low Japanese dining table where I have to sit down on the floor, so I would be too lazy to get up for a second round.

But for now I switched my 8 inch plates to a 3.3 inch bowl which is about ½ cup. It works wonder because I’m able to control food intake better. It’s a little bit easier to recognize when my stomach is truly hungry too because I’m not being overfed. It’s a lot of food when it’s being served on a smaller plate. I can feel how I become less obsess about food, because often times I don’t want to drop what I’m doing so I’ll wait a little longer before deciding to eat. I don’t have hunger pangs that I’ve to eat something immediately.

It was difficult at Christmas dinner but I drank green tea instead of water during the meal. It’s like eating warm soup; it does fill up the stomach. I was able to drop a pound last week.

I didn’t plan my meals or keep up with food journaling. It’s sort of bad idea because the act of planning, preparing food and writing down….it’s food obsession. I remembered when I was thin; I didn’t do any of that. I usually shopped for food just before I got hungry. I went to a gym class 3 times a week.

I haven’t been blogging much lately because I’m unsure which way to go. I don’t want to go down to the usual road pushing it and then gain all the weight back anyway. I want to do things differently – think differently. It all depends on the mindset if I’m going to succeed or not. I don’t believe it’s all about will power. I’d my moments when I was so sure I’d the solution, but it was about the doing and wanting.

Today I’ve this “sure” moment again, but I feel more confident this time. I acknowledge my real problem (binging/overeating) and I also found a better way to motivate myself. I’ll try to craft a post and share this idea with you in a few weeks. Last time I promised you I would write about my skinny habits, but I didn’t because it didn’t work in the long run. But this time I’ll share with you my idea about motivation, because it may help someone else.

Here the other week when I was cleaning, I came across on my old weight loss data when I was at my highest and I can’t believe I’d lost about 13 pounds (6kg) so far. How can I’ve forgotten about that? It makes me happy!

Last week I didn’t struggle much with binge eating. I’m feeling very peaceful! As the results, I dropped 4 lbs and hitting a new low on the scale too.

Got to go and prepare lunch for tomorrow
Have a great Monday!

At he grocery store today

I’ve started a food journal; I figure it would be a good idea to monitor how many calories I eat per day. It’s just estimation. Also, I’d joined a site where I can follow a menu plan based on my caloric intake. On certain days when I don’t know what I would like to eat, I usually end up eating out or eating fast food. That’s why I need a menu plan to fall back on.

I was planning to take a walk after dinner but after some grocery shopping and other stuff, I didn’t make it. Perhaps tomorrow